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I'm a self-absorbed Bengali-Torontonian; Fish comes to me raw, wrappend in seaweed, not cooked in curry; I love watching thunderstorms and rain; Sad endings make more sense to me than happy ones; I hate empty walls.
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Craving of the week- Dark Chocolate
Reading List- Midnight's Children
Movie review(out of 5)- 127 hours- *****
Buried- ****
That Girl in Yellow Boots- **
Love of the week- Seeing James Franco
Aim for the weekend- Watch 'Going Postal' The Movie
I've started on 'The Brothers Karamazov' by Fyodor Dostoevsky and its going to be one of those 'perfect escape' books for me, I can tell. It needs to be savoured and read non stop over weeks and after I won't be able to read anything else for a while. But I'm having to put it down for the moment- I don't think I'll be able to dedicate that kind of time right now, plus its borrowed from the library (yeah i know what was I thinking! I should go back to buying books) and I really don't feel like paying anther $30 in late fines, when I still have two parking tickets to pay. But I had to make a note of these two quotes by the elder Zossima which were just too beautiful.
"If you do not attain happiness, always remember that you are on the right road and try not to leave it. Avoid falsehood, every kind of falsehood, especially falseness to yourself. Watch over your deceitfulness and look into it every hour , every minute. Avoid being scornful, both to others and to yourself. What seems to you bad within you will grow purer from the very fact of your observing it in yourself. "
" Never be frightened at your own faint-heartedness in attaining love. Love in action is a harsh and dreadful thing compared to love in dreams. Love in dreams is greedy for immediate action, rapidly performed and in the sight of all. Men will even give their lives if only the ordeal does not last long but is soon over, with all looking on and applauding as though on the stage. But active love is labour and fortitude and for some people, perhaps, a complete science."
*This space might be on hold too for the next little while, while I work on a different flavour of blogging*
Those of you following this space might have had an inkling about how eventful a year 2007 was for me..and not in the good way. I was apprehensive right from the beginning- infact I don't even recall making proper resolutions list which is a first for me.
Not one thing did go according to how I planned it- be it school, career or relationships. In fact some have gone horribly, maddeningly wrong and some events continue to cast a shadow.
What has got me through and reach 2008 with some semblance of sanity and optimism are my dear, sweet, honest, supportive friends, my parents who I have only begun to understand and love fiercely and my surprisingly all grown up little brother. Knowingly and unknowingly you have given me courage, confidence and an ability to rise above failures. I'm not so scared of falling anymore.
Here's to hoping for a far more positively eventful and successful 366 days this year and my list in no particular order: - Try to go down to a size 6 for the big 3-0 birthday in April - Finish the CRA certification as a stepping stone to direct my career better - Date more and often to find that guy with POP (possibility of progress) - Become better at fake affections for certain people
- Finish 'Brothers Karamazov' and 'War and Peace' - Pick up tennis or squash as the new way to stay fit and be active - Accept that some people will continue to lie and let me down but I can't let it run my life
- Make every moment I spend with the important people in my life, count in diamonds!